Thank you all so much for your comments here and by email, and for the love you sent me without words. I felt it, and it helped me get through what was really a pretty tough week. I'm feeling a bit better this week, though I know I have a lot of ups and downs yet to go.
Last night I picked up the journal I was keeping about this time last year, looking for the name of a restaurant I went to when I was in NY in November. As I flipped through the pages, looking for my notes from that trip, the weight of the sadness I poured into that small book was almost palpable in my hand. And I realized this: I am not that woman anymore. I am sad, yes, but this sadness has an end in sight. I am healing. I no longer feel hopeless. I am so much lighter now. There's a lot of this road left ahead of me, but it was good to look back and see how far I have come, and that it is a good long distance.
I bought the new Songs for Tibet compilation on iTunes this week that has this Jackson Browne song on it and it hit me in the gut. Yes. I want to be alive in the world. And I am now, so much more than I have ever been.
Maktub, - isn't that what they say in the Alchemist ' its written'.
Speak it and it shall be. This was sweet, heartfelt and celebratory posting to read. You indeed seem lighter, laugh easier and flow more. It is wonderful to be a witness to you in this interesting time in your life. Thank YOU.
Posted by: Kirsten Liske | Sunday, August 10, 2008 at 11:07 PM